So my band director from high school was talking to me to see how I was doing and asked if I was still involved in the music world.

If you guys know what’s going on, I’m not doing drum corps this year. I didn’t join wind ensemble at Sac. I only tried a beginning choir for one semester. I don’t play any instruments regularly anymore nor do I sing covers or perform. It’s strange for me, but I’m trying other things in the meantime… Ugh. I don’t know. I guess those last things he said to me kind of hit me hard. I’ve always had trouble hearing people say that because I don’t feel like I’m fit for music… I don’t think I have that kind of talent. And I’m not saying I’m giving up on a dream because I do have other career-related dreams… but I don’t know.

I’m just so confused.